A lot is going on in my life. I'm moving again in the next month or so as long as I can get my money together for it. I'm moving further up north. Escaping, as it were. I'm leaving my family behind. I'm trying to move on with my life.
I've got a plan for the future. Its pretty solid, and achievable. I'm going to volunteer at a hospice for terminally ill children, and then I'm going to work towards becoming a social worker, helping kids that need it the most. Eventually, I wont to work in emergency cases, dealing with kids that need help and fast. Its something I think I'm suited for, as long as I can get my mental health under control. We'll have to see.
Ironically, putting that aside, I'm actually going to "come out" to my mother as being bi (I'm pan, but she won't get what that is and I doubt she'll understand and I know she wouldn't let me explain). Now that I'm single, I don't know what's going to happen in the future, in the short or the long term. The last thing I want is my mother to find out by Facebook status or from someone else in the family.
But... mum... well... She's violent, as is my step-father. I wouldn't be surprised if she attacked me for it. She once told me that all gays, lesbian, Bi's and trans people should be shot in the head to save the world from suffering with their existence. I'm actually expecting having to go to the police because of her reaction.
I'm expecting her to stab me if she gets the opportunity (Not the first time she's done something like this). I plan to take her out for coffee, so I just have to make sure her cup is empty, or I can bet my ass, I'm going to have scalding tea in my face. At least in public, there are witness.
Wow, that makes me sound like a horrible daughter. Haa. Maybe I am? Oh well.
Truthfully, I'm having to go back to the psychiatrist. My meds made me worse, so I came off of them, and now I'm suffering again. I don't like the dark and I hate opening doors. Great.
All in all this is a partly happy and partly hard and sad time for me.
Take care everyone, Okay?